Bad Body Image Day

Well first of all, sorry I have not posted in a while. I just started my new job as a paralegal and have been quite busy.

Today was a very bad body image day. I just feel large, heavy and slow all the time. I feel like I can't keep up with my fast running friends anymore because I gained weight since I was last able to run. Then this morning I tried on a skirt that fit me back in March and it was a bit tight. It doesn't help that I am completly bloated and feel even fatter than normal.

It is just frustrating because I don't know if I will ever fully feel "skinny". Even at my thinnest I was always paranoid about gaining weight. I don't want to always be worried about this for the rest of my life.

The good news is I am eating very well, even though I think it may be a little too much. I want to run this marathon the best I can and not get hurt or sick during training. Today I had 2100 calories...I don't even know anymore if that is perfect/too high/whatever.

Ugh, sorry for being all Debbie Downer on you guys. I promise a much more positive post tomorrow!